I’m somewhat a passive reader, except for novels of course. I’ve been fond of reading some “singles books” and been saying yes and been nodding with assent with the things those books say but never really harnessed them eventually. I forget. Or maybe they didn’t really permeate my system since I haven’t really made being single a serious issue in my life. Or so I thought.
Well, Accounting is not just plain Accounting. If you’re a person who relates things, petty things at that, too much that it doesn’t sound relatable at all, you’d see how Accounting could be of big help to a small matter. I’m like a traditional entity that tends to hide the revenue problem under a great stock of inventory supply. My Cost Accounting, Production and Supply Management, and Managerial Accounting courses taught me that because you have ample inventory supply doesn’t mean that you’ll get away with cost-revenue problems. I don’t want to elaborate how this is so because I don’t want to sound gobbledygook. The real point is, yes I’m single and I didn’t put much of a big deal about it. But it’s not really it. It’s not just about not putting a big deal on it. It’s because I tried to hide it from myself under the cover of a made-up thought that I don’t care. I do. And I suppressed the feeling that I really do.
I’m the kind of person who does not want to look weak and pathetic. I implanted that thought for so long. I thought that poignancy on being single is a great sign of weakness. But no. It’s not being weak. It’s being real. And that is what I learned from Michelle McKinney Hammond’s “What to Do until Love Finds You”. Get a genuine, unfeigned assessment of yourself. It may be from a friend who sees you from the outside or from you who sees yourself from the inside. Know what the matter really is and find courses of actions to get to the bottom of it.
Another lesson I learned is to feel beautiful about yourself. Not that you really have to put make-up and dress-up like it’s the end of the world. I understand that it’s 2012 (the doomsday’s about to come which I think like a big joke). But grooming doesn’t have to overdo who you really are. Of course it won’t hurt to put a little liner and mascara, lip and cheek tint like what I do everyday just lately. But balance - balance is everything.
Lastly, love. As how Hammond says it, “Love and feel loved”. Even before I already believed that love factor puts everything in position. In the first place that is what God wants us to do. He first loved us, you see. So be it. Hammond added, “Women who are in love and feel loved have a glow that no store-bought beauty mist can create. They are radiant and very attractive to even the most nonchalant male.”
On the top if them all, I guess I have to look at the other side of the case. I might as well try to change my perspective on some things. I used to seal off my mind from facing what weaknesses I have because I don’t want to admit them. And of course I’ll continue living with what I call my “wanted-life”. I’ll work hard and get busy living – study; graduate; get the CPA title; work; and travel. TRAVEL! I have to work with what I’ve got and play it to the hilt. And this blog will be good start for a new year. :)
